Tuesday, May 18, 2010


Check it
Proverbs 30 7-9
Two things i ask of you; deny them not to me before i die
Remove far from me falsehood and lying;give me neither poverty nor riches;feed me with the food that is needful for me,
lest i be full and deny you and say, ''who is the Lord'' or lest i be poor and steal and profane the name of my God.

So I ask you this, are you willing to pray this prayer? basically this dude is saying take lying and things that are false away from me and only give me my daily bread. God just give me only what i need. Cuz if i have to much i will not remember you. if i have not enough i will steal and sin. but if i have just what i need i will praise you.
He is saying that i dont need a retirement plan or a savings account. i dont need food on the shelves for tomorrow. i just need enough for today. i just need to live paycheck to paycheck.

So are you willing to pray this prayer?

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Love or Law

I have been thinking. I know that's scary. Lol. I have been thinking about the passage where jesus tells the crowd that if anyone forces you to go one mile with him then go two.

I have heard that this passage is talking about the roman soldiers. By law they could ask anyone to carry their things for one mile. They were not suppose to force them to go any farther. So in a sense Jesus was asking them to break the law for the sake of love.

So my question is an ethical question. Do you take food if loved ones are starving? Hmmm let me hear what you think.

Sunday, February 14, 2010


For the past few months and maybe longer if I really want to admit it, I have been feeling a calling to music. Now I am throwing this out there in fear of being wrong, but I think God is leading me into playing music for people. I guess we in this culture would call it a worship leader, but I am not to found of that term. I don't think that I can lead anyone into worship. I think that they have to choose to enter into that worship and that that worship should be done 24/7. Now this could be done with music or spoken word or even silence. I don't think that any person with a guitar or piano or a mic should bear the burden of whether or not you want to worship our Creator. Ok so now that we understand each other lol.....

I feel the Spirit leading me to play music for others corporately. I feel this is my gift back to the Church and to our Savior. I also believe that this is a place that I can speak. Whether it is through a pray or through words that I sing. I don't know how this works. This is all new to me. I don't know where I begin. All I know is my heart is yerning to play for people. So I guess if anyone knows of a church or a camp that needs someone to play for them let me know. Here is a new song that God gave me.


Injustice strikes from all around
Oppression always tries to keep us down
But God we want your kingdom come
God we want your will to be done

We want a revolution
We want to change this place
We want a revelation
We want you, we want you

So use our hands Use our feet
God lead us out into the street
To show your love all around
T show this place where true love is found

We want a revolution
We want to change this place
We want a revelation
We want you, we want you

God won't you come, won't you come, won't you come
God won't you come, won't you come, won't you come
God won't you come, won't you come, won't you come
God won't you come, won't you come, won't you come

Let me know what you think.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Hauling A all Day every Day

Well Monday was my first day that I didn't have to go to the PowerHouse. I still went and volunteered which I hope to do every evening. Hauling A (the Amish hauling biz) is going well. I have my first big trip coming up this Friday. I will be going to Fort Wayne for 2 nights and 3 days. It will be sweet. They pay for the trip down and back and also put me and my wife up in a hotel. Sounds like a pretty sweet gig. The best part is I get to spend the whole weekend with my wonderful wife.

I am learning a lot about myself through all this job changing process. I have learned that I really do love money. I have used it as a crutch or even a discouragement instead of just following Jesus. I would ask money if I could do things instead of just going for it.

I am also learning that I need more of Jesus. It's weird that we don't realize that until something goes wrong or needs fixing. I really believe that we need to put our selves into positions to need Him. I don't want to get back to the spot where I can use money instead of Jesus. I don't want to be at the spot where I use my own abilities instead of Jesus using me the way He wants to. I want to be the foolish thing that God uses to shame the wise. I mean look at me. I am a 23 year old Amish Hauler and God is using me to talk to kids, teens, adults, and elderly. How great is that. I don't have a degree. I have no certificate. I am not ordained by any man or organization. And God is using me. Wow. I have no reasons or proof to boast about my self for anything. LOL that is amazing.

God is good. So go and give it all away, its the Christian Way.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Christianity Is Not For The Faint At Heart, Neither Is Sailing

I heard this story from Jason Upton. "I met a sailor the other day. I asked him, how do you sail like you do safely. And he laughed and said, Jason, you can't sail across the Atlantic and do it safely. No sailor ever sails safely. Its not really sailing unless you push it to the edge. Its not sailing unless you have a chance to die. That is what makes it fun." Jason then goes on to talk about how in this age of Church and in this age of taking the bible and taking out all the scary stuff and the dirty stuff..... You know i think he is on to something. Shouldn't Christianity be scary. Shouldn't it have a chance that we might die for living out the truth. But it doesn't here in America. We have made the gospel into something its not. We have made it into this little nice book that wont get us into trouble. Well it seems that when I read it there are people always getting there selves into to trouble for obeying and following God.

You know what sucks about this though. My head understands that following Jesus is scary. That He will get me into trouble and I wont be liked by all if I follow Him, but my heart doesn't want to jump on board with that idea. See I keep second guessing things. I know I was suppose to quit my job and start hauling amish. I know that this is going to make me and my wife lean on Him more, but I am scared. Scared of what? Well I guess failure. Not that my business will fail but that I didn't hear right. Maybe I was just doing this for me. Maybe I...... You see what I mean? And I know all the verses. I just got to put them into use. I have to start putting my knowledge into action and then my heart will catch on. Whats the worst that could happen? If I am wrong at least I will learn through this. If I an wrong at least I am trying to please Him. And this is how I want my life to be marked. I want to know that I tried to Please Him with everything I have and not holding anything back. So I guess I will keep "Giving it all away, because its the Christian Way". I mean what do I have to lose.

Monday, January 18, 2010


It seems to me that Joy inst just given to you. However I wish it was. Over these past few weeks I have come to realize that you have to find joy, and then once you find it you have to take it with you every where.

See it isn't that joyful when your pipes bust under your house. It isn't that joyful when you van won't start. It also isn't that joyful when you know that you have given away most of your money and now are running out. But you see this is placing my joy in the wrong things. I shouldn't be joyous because I have an abundance. I shouldn't be joyous because everything seems to be going right. I should be joyous in the fact I have a heavenly Father that loves me. My joy should be in the fact that I am doing what pleases my Father. Doing what pleases my Father isn't always safe or comfortable. In fact once you do this all hell breaks loose and trys to stop you. And this is where me and my wife are at. Hell has broken loose these past few weeks. It has come close to stealing the joy that we have found, but we are saying no.

I am learning a lot about where I put my trust and faith. I am learning a lot of what I have talked about for a few years has never been put to practice till now.

So I urge you fellow Christ followers to find true Joy and never let it go.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Beware of Blogging

Beware of Blogging!!! Why, you ask? Well, because what you talk about you will have to act it out. It seems since I have posted, give it all, my wife and I have been tested to see if we meant it. My amish hauling van broke down (alternator), it took 4 hours to change the oil in it, and now the turn signals are not working. We are trying to finish a kitchen and the furnace that runs the heat for the kitchen, dinning room, and bathroom (which 3 guys use) will possible take over $700.00 to fix. Then yesterday we get a call that someone needs $100.00 to help with certain bills. So what do you do? You give it all away. LOL That is my new slogan, "Give it all away, It's the Christian way".

Not only have we been getting attacked (or tested) with our material things, we have been getting it physically. We aren't stressed or worried, but our body is trying to make us feel that way. The past few days I have developed a twitch in my arm. It just starts spazing uncontrollably through out the day. My wife hasn't sleep well and has been feeling sick to her stomach. So we are praying against this. We know satans tricks and he is trying to make us believe we are stressed. But we aren't. We have hope in the Lord, and what is the worst that can happen? So what if we loose our house, or cars, or have to sell everything. As long as we are loving the Lord and our neighbor with all we have, what more can we ask. I don't want riches on this world, because then I wouldn't need Jesus.

Well take that for what it is worth, but always remember there are people out there that need things more than us. Keep that in mind when you go shopping next time.

Tracy Cook